Hi all! You can choose to read or naw but I wrote this a WHILE ago. It is rough but here ya are!
Do you ever have the worst day at work? These days usually start off so well but end in bitter sadness and overwhelming feelings of failure. I had one of those days recently. It was a particularly good, productive day where I could feel students making progress, but by the day's end, I want to be home so badly, I could not focus on work one iota. To top of the feelings of stress and aggravation, I read someone's particularly happy story about conceiving their child. To be frank, I was angry. I was sad. I nearly started crying because I just could not handle the fact that this person so effortlessly received a gift I so desperately wanted, but could not have. I was, of course, happy for them, but I was also sad for myself. It is in times like this that we as humans want to blame someone, anyone else for things only we can change. We want to be mad at things that are kept from us. It is hard. It seems as though all the people around me either have babies or are pregnant. For me, it's a really strong desire but something I cannot have at the moment. It is entirely difficult when SO many of these people don't even want and we're not trying to conceive to begin with. This makes me SO much more mad. This seems rude, but I have nothing against the people themselves. They are not trying to personally hurt my by sharing their news with others. Additionally, I don't want them to feel like they cannot speak about the good things happening to them. -GN Hi again! I know I am a failure, but the holidays are busy, and I have been very busy. I know that all it seems is excuses, but it's very true. Stress is a killer, you know!
I am working so hard this week, but I am going to try and double post on the same day this time. I hope you enjoy! Balance. What an unobtainable thing. Balance is the thing we seek as writers. We seek this, potentially, more than anything. The ability to have balance in life and our writing? That is a mythical creature running through our dreams. Why, you ask, do I speak of unobtainable things? The answer, my friends, is simple. You cannot have it. I mean we do a lot to try and put moderation into place, and while moderation is a necessity, it is not the same as balance. I feel like a tease, but I do actually have a tip for you. Remember this: balance is different for every person EVERY DAY. Seriously. There's nothing wrong with routine, kids totally need it, but having a routine and adjusting your balance for that specific day is key. Don't stress about being ten minutes early to class every day. You may like that feeling, but it won't always happen. That's okay. It will all be okay. The thing that you have to remember is to let it go. Maybe you will not get to writing every day, but at least you are TRYING! So remember, you have done great things today. Maybe your balance isn't perfect, but it is what you needed today. -GN Hi!
I am here again and this time I am double posting! Today is going to be an easy one. I am posting more of JYTSS! Please enjoy! -GN Hello folks!
Due to the business of my weekend, I did not get a chance to post. I have some work to finish tonight for tomorrow. I am so sorry that I missed this week! I will make it up to you with a double post next week! -GN |
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